It's been too long. And seeing the last post as more than a year ago, I doubt that anyone drops by.
But, anyhow.
So much has changed in the past 2-3 years. And even from a year ago, God has really taught me so much.
I realize that I really enjoy dialoguing with God, and that is why I truly enjoy long bus rides, train rides, and mostly the time alone in HK. I'm not saying I enjoy the singleness, no. I enjoy the solitude, and I almost always have done it since being in HK in 2009, but it was too subtle to realize.
And in that dialogue, God just speaks so much to me. I recount my days, my fears, my desires, my challenges, my inadequacies, and myself. And it's amazing how the answer to everything is always that simple: Him.
Just these few weeks, I have learnt an important truth, for myself (disclaimer).
There's been someone on my mind...it's been a while, but that's not the main point. Thing is it's been more recently, and somewhat to the point where I start to feel like I was back in school chasing skirts, only this time it's so different. The me back then has more guts. haha.
Back to the story.
She has been on my mind, quite a bit. And it was making me emo (I'm just being honest). But thank God for a precious reminder: how can I think of her more than I think of Him? It was reeling out of control, in some sense, and there was so little of God in the process. And as I always try to encourage others to consider God in the process, I thank the Holy Spirit for this reminder, to include Him in the process again.
So anyway, it was a humbling process coming back to Him, and making Him the centre. You know, there is a phrase that came to me,
Sometimes the greatest journey is the distance between two people sitting just side by side.
And there were many times it did feel like it, especially today. But I thank God that as I worked through that distance, He reminded me of this from Psalms 103:11-12
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.
And now at the end of the day, it is just amazing to be reminded that in places we feel that we are the furthest and mostest end, the love of God is also there. However far we feel, the love of God is so much greater still.
And so the answers to almost all my dialogues is just this: making Him and putting Him back to where He should be: the centre. Our centre.
But, it has been a really good day.
:)